Happy birthday Anabelle!

-although some months late..

I only took 5 from my camera and shockingly none of them contained cute doggy faces. But its probably due to the fact that all the other 2000000000 of my wonderful photography is on Monique's camera. She's literally got folders and folders of hundreds of photos of her new puppy =).

It's New Years Eve! Can't wait to die from heat and sunburn in the first 6hrs of tomorrow, then of exhaustion between 6-8, then exhiliration at 9, and back to tiredness and suffocation at 10-11.30. Then 12AM. Time to make some New Years' revolutions.

Edelweiss

SwishhhhhSwashhhh. My head is an empty shell. I don't know what to write about. I thought since i finally managed to sign into Blogger, I should take this opportunity and write something.

So. How highhh does the Sicamore grow? If you cut it down then you'll neeeever know. And you'll neeever hear the wolf cry to the bluecorn moon or ask the grinning Bobcat why he grinsss.

I think Human Nature is cool. And Il Divo.
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Lets discuss how indecisive I am. Take me to Easy Way or New Zealand icecream or basically anywhere that presents me with choices, the first thing I do is look at every one of my options 10 times over. Then, I force myself to eliminate at least half of the choices in my head. By this stage usually everyone's already begun ordering and im left standing there stressed and boggled. I start using my fingers to precisely point out what i have narrowed myself down to. Usually this forces me to pick a top 10 since I only have 10 fingers.

My mind goes through a lot of debate and tries to make a pro/con list of each option. Eventually, after alot of peer pressure, I wouldve come down to a Top 3. Through the elimination process and the help of the pro/con list, I come up with a winner.

The person at the counter asks 'What would you like?'. This question jolts a certain nerve in my brain which causes me to reconsider my winning choice all over again. I quickly start playing 'inny minny mynny moe' with my top 2 choices.

I settle for option no.2.
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I'm going to get Sims 2. After playing it at Emily's house, it reignited my Sims obsession.
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Shame. It's going to be hot and rainy on NYE. If we're lucky maybe Milson's Point now has parks with see-through roofs.
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GIO we don't just listen, we do.
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Call the Reading Writing hotline

Ame, ame, ame.
They call me Stacy.
They call me Jane.
They call me quiet girl.
But Im a Ri-ot.
-or something like that.

My name's Max. Maxwell Smart.

Ive got an alarm system
in my house
so iii know when people are
creepin about
these people are freakin me out






yes. This post was utterly pointless.

A handprint amongst the many footprints

So we live in this city. Its dull as hell and excruciatingly suffocating. There are lamp posts stationed at every few blocks of land, and like clockwork, you know theyll turn themselves on every night, without a sound.


We don't complain. It's in our nature to hear what is said and see what is there. Why should we notice the silent lamp post when magazines, google, and films are screaming at us, exciting us with volumes and volumes of information. In fact there's so much to take in that we start ordering it online in bulks and storing them in our library. Eventually, we start upgrading our libraries, like a tasty, compulsive race egging us to compete against all the other growing libraries.


It's life or death.


We walk down Pitt St. The lights are staring down on us now, daring us to make an unexpected turn into the forgotten streets. But we continue straight forward, looking to the bright lights to guide us to the centre of the city.


Our lives are like a world globe; prewritten and predictable. But I see a crack on the map. A crack that we could slip through, escaping the expectations and the incessant buzzing of the city.

We face the future like it knows us when in fact the future should face us like we are something to fear.

Anything and everything

This computer is slightly temperamental. I dont get to blog as much as i want to cause it doesnt let me sign into blogger usually...wierd.
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Im finally getting access to my 'uni fund'. Yesterday I deposited my dad's getting-into-uni cheque and im getting a keycard soon too. How awesome. My mum is quite accepting to the idea of me buying a new computer as a first buy with my bank account. Imagine, a 6th addition to our computer family.

Laptop or desktop? Ive been using laptops for so long now that it feels wierd to not be able to watch DVDs or youtube whilst in bed. BUT then I kind of have a bad track record when it comes to laptops...I fried my sis' just before HSC cos i spilled water on it...then I took my mum's and once again spilled more water on it.
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I haven't done much in the last few days. Its been relaxing.
- Ive played tennis with Dancing Richard, Bernard and Remi
- Got locked out of my house for 4hrs so I took the chance to walk to Roselands and back, then walked to Beverly Hills and took a train back, and walked half way to Penshurst before turning back in attempt to rescue my sanity.
- I didn't go to my ballet chrstmas party cause my mum wouldn't drive me so that bummed me out. I sent a txt msg to my teacher but im wondering if she'd changed numbers or something =(
- I went to our family friend's Taoist christmas party which I only go to catch up with friends. I met this person there too which was made a mockery of because apparently there's an inside joke concerning the person. Now i have to say, I will be on the joke next time =)
- I don't get to go to my sis' friend's christmas party tonight either cause its at 9pm-3am but my sis is going to sleep over there.
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It's nearly Christmas. I don't even know what that means. It's a bit of a pointless occassion for me. We once bought a $1 Christmas tree from the post-Christmas sales. We piled that tree with trinklets and other shiny objects that year. That was exhilirating.
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It seems to me that no one's going to USYD. It's funny, I started high school knowing no one too. But next year I'm not going to make the same mistake. At the beginning of year 7, I was much too eager to impress and to make 'perfect' friends. The ones that did want to be my friend, I rejected because I admit that I was a snob. I tried forcing my way into old primary school groups that made it quite clear that they wanted to keep their group strictly as it was. They treated me like crap and even to this day I remember it as clear as day.

Connie was my rock during that entire time. Whenever it was too unbearable I would go to her and she would console me. Friend for life, that one. After too many weeks of rejection, I gave in and left the group as they had wanted. That was when I met Monique =). Another friend for life.

No more grudges now. USYD's a new start. Everything right now is running as perfectly as I could imagine.
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This is a super post to make up for my days of absence.

Fish and Chips anyone?

Last night I couldnt sleep a wink. It couldve been because ive been sleeping at the strangest hours whether at dawn or at sunset.

Like Tang, I'm not going to ask what marks anyone got and nor do I really need to know. With this, don't bother asking me either. What's important is that I've got my first UAC preference and is now deciding whether i really want to suffer 5yrs of engineering along with Architecture.

In other news, my hopes of ever owning my own dog has been revived! My sis gave me this crazy idea when she was discussing her plans of turning half our lounge into her new bedroom/lounge. If this plan runs, then i can have my own room and with this I can keep my dog in it whenever my mums at home. Ill install baby gates and all so my dog wouldnt feel isolated.
HOWEVER, i told my mum of my plans and she told me a big fat 'NO' cause she doesnt trust me...with my track record i wouldnt either...BUT then she said, if you can take care of the house for the next 2yrs then yes.

So now, New Years' Resolution for 2009 AND 2010 is that I will take care of this house and get that dog! My mum only made this deal cause she doesnt believe I can make it past a few months but lll show her MUAHAHAHA

This is sad. I think every post ive published has some mention of a dog and if it wasnt written in words then I was probably thinking about it when i was typing.

WARNING* Incredibly Spiteful Post

Im terrified.

For the last how ever many weeks i have completely suppressed all my worries and stress related to our dreaded UAI. Every single time that topic was mentioned i would nonchalently wave it off and laugh about the whole fiasco.

But then tonight I went through the newly released HSC top 20 subject rankings. It was depressing. I regretted looking through the lists as soon as i'd gotten to F.

French. I felt so guilty. I felt like we'd failed Ms Matkovich. Maybe it was our self assurance in aceing that subject that caused our downfall. Not a single state rank.

For the first time in 6yrs, I was ashamed to say i went to Syd G. I became a traitor.

Now as i write this, Im angry at myself for letting myself betray our school because of my competitiveness. Im still much too shocked at how amazingly well some other schools did. So shocked that im feeling incredibly spiteful.

This post should be titled "WARNING* Incredibly Spiteful Post"

Ive decided that tomorrow, im not going to check my marks for the indiv subjects. It'll drive me insane having to wait another 24hrs. If i did, i wouldve had to write another spiteful post which I really dont wish to.

Congrats Jenny J [if you read this]

I hate technology. I don't understand how all those torrent things and downloading stuff works. I tried all day yesterday and in the end even my sis told me to "just don't bother downloading music, just give up". So I gave up.

From now on I will be leaching songs off everyone else. And my phone has bluetooth!! You can bluetooth songs right? Amazing what you can do nowadays.
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Imagine if i had a dog right now. I could be spending these holidays quite happily at home playing with it. My cat on the other hand dissapears for days at a time so I barely get to see him much. My sis' turtle.....it just waddles around pointlessly. Our fish....fascinating....

My life serves no meaning right now. Everyday is pointless. I sleep at who knows what time [heading towards 4am], I wake up at midday and pull my laptop to the bed where I continue sitting there whilst chatting and surfing aimlessly. I think the last time i had a proper meal was weeks ago, back in Coffs. In fact, the other day, all i remember eating was alot of icecream with chocolate topping, slice of cake, and crepes with a lot of chocolate.
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I feel like cheesecake. 85degrees cheesecake would be nice.

Twilight

I have officially been converted. So converted that i have in fact decided to give the books a go.

I was very skeptical about one fictional character's ability to capture every girl's heart. But I was proven wrong when the cinema erupted into deafening sounds of screams and cries of joy as Edward Cullen took his first steps onto the screen.

Its mindblowing. I have found a fictional person that by far exeeds my Harry Potter related fetishes. But right now im doubting that this is going to be another one of my fanatical obsessions. It's nice to fantasise but Id rather keep in touch with reality for the time being. Knowing me, my obsessions usually stick around for years so I shant start something that'll probably drive me crazy for another couple of years.

Im officially too OLD to buy a child ticket

Thanks heaps everybody. My 18th has got to be my best birthday ever.

Most of the photos are on my sis' camera and since she told me to stay away from it, all ive got are these. Ill post my sis' ones later.

Singstar is the devil.

Dixon+Co have no homes. Clearly from Rose's and Sus' disinterest, it was time for them to find another home at 1am.

Thanks everyone!!

And how will i ever be able to use this whiteboard?? I couldn't even bring myself to destroy yr11/12 exams, so as if i could wipe any of this off.

Im on Virgin now. How wierd. Apparently free calls+text Virgin-to-Virgin. So, WHO'S ON VIRGIN [probably 5% of the population) ?

No, im still not over it yet =).

Anyone know when my new phone is supposed to change to my old number? Right now i have to carry both phones with me.

ALSO, where do i dl songs?? (Don't laugh, but I only know of limewire and i havent used that since beginning of last year.)

Childhood nostalgia

I can't believe i'm saying this but i wish this break was shorter. I'm already really bored and we've still got another 3 months to kill. If only we were going overseas, now that would be the ultimate post-hsc celebration. But as usual my mum has turned back on her words. She never keeps her promise, even when we were little she'd bribe us to do things like if we cleaned the car she'd take us somewhere fun. Liesssss.

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I used to be so naive. When i was 8 or so, my mum would pay us 20cents to wash the dishes for a week. Talk about JIPPED! She only upgraded to $20/wk when i was 13 when she realised that no one's ever gonna wash the dishes with her pay rates.

Nowadays I get a helluva lot more than that for doing nothing. So my mum has dropped the pay rate to nothing and now there's no more incentive to do housechores...except maybe to escape the evil glares from my mum...

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Maybe being naive was a good thing. With being naive there was a freedom. We used to have fun. We held Christmas parties where us kids would play in a jumping castle outside in the backyard whilst the adults danced under the lights inside the house.

Now everyone's too busy. We've locked ourselves inside a shell, blinded by our own lives. No one has the time to step out of their repetitive schedules and find out what life is really about.

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I don't want to live my life in a box. I want to taste the freedom that i used to feel as a kid. Maybe it's the way mankind is. We all grow to be greedy.

I wish i could take back my selfishness, my greed.

I wish for my 20cents/wk.

Growing up is tough. It's suffocating.

Wishlist

So I've been asked to do a wishlist.
But sorry to say that my list isn't as specific as Tang's.
The thing is, I don't really want or need anything. The things that I do want can't really be bought.

So here's my wishlist.
- Something simple.
- No need for extravagant things.
- Perhaps a card I can hang on my wall.
- Or just your presence will be lovely enough.

Of course my list is bound to outrage some of my fellow peers so i'll put up an alternative wishlist.

Alternative wishlist.
- A whiteboard that i can hang up. (not those massive classroom ones....=)
- A 2009 diary. Warning. Im extremely picky with diaries so more than likely I won't love it.
- A pretty cushion.
- A massive soft toy, one that my mum will go OMG at.
- A nice and fat book on dogs.
- Absolutely anything dog related.

MY ULTIMATE WISHLIST.
- A PERMISSION FROM MY MUM TO GET A DOG.

Anyone who can fulful my ultimate wishlist: I will put up a shrine in the centre of my house dedicated to you.