Attachment prone

- that is me, also as a characteristic of the ENFP personality type.

I have 5months. 5 months to either distach myself and cause myself less pain when the time does come or 5months to make the most of.

I hate this. I get attached to people, places, and things so much that i find it so hard to let them go. Eg, highschool where in the last couple of weeks i was an unpredictable bag of waterworks.
I don't get attached to things that easily but when i genuinely like them or enjoy a place, i want to keep them forever.

See, ENFPs only make up 7% of the population. Therefore it is fairly possible that my attachment issues is only onesided. Everytime i think about time and its continuous neverending nature, my head starts spinning and i can't breathe. Would pretending and lying to myself that it's not really happening just cause more sadness later?

What's also distressing is that if you take away the proximity, you take away the love. Meaning that for me, as an ENFP, i start forgetting about people when i stop having contact with them and i stop caring about them as much. I really don't mean to or want to but i know it'll happen.

I'm on a selfish streak too. I want to keep friends to myself so im not thrilled about recent events.

SOMEONE GIVE ME A PAUSE BUTTON PLEASE