Broken vows

Okay by posting this i've broken my vow. BUT i had to cos this is just too beautiful to keep to myself, that would be too selfish!

...Obviously my 'giving up the internet' has failed miserably.

Omg

I'm starting to really hate myself for doing nothing in terms of schoolwork for the last few weeks. Im screwed for everything, maths and chem in particular.
Im a procrastinator bigtime. I can sit and stare at a blank wall for 2hrs, analyse random little memories, dream of my brilliant future, and of course relentlessly punch myself for doing nothing all at the same time.

Omg isnt it stressful when you think that perhaps your UAI could actually really affect your future. Like me, if i dont straight out get into Vet Science, i most probably will never be able to be a vet. My destiny will be changed. We all know that getting a good uai, in a way, is just a fasttrack into life. But maybe we should think that trying several different paths is a good experience and would eventually lead you to exactly where u were intended to be.

I think i believe in destiny. I dont know if that makes life any more or less exciting. But yeh anway, like many others, i'm putting my blogging on hold and im shutting myself from the internet (after many hours wasted on googling dogs....).

Goodbye happiness. I am surrending myself to the dark realm of study.

Anticipation for the HSc

Since most people i've asked prefers to be shot dead due to their extensive use of procrastination during these 2 weeks. I thought to myself - I am not a conformist and therefore would appreciate a more exciting approach to the termination of the HSC world, that is via a hyper-real dream where i only exist inside the deepest part of my subconscience.

I would be choked, gased and stabbed, all of which occurs within my sleep. My motionless body would be moved to a ward for close monitoring and eventually my brain will freeze.

Of course all this would have only happened because of my reluctance to face persecution that is due to occur on Tuesday. I can already feel my heart beating a million times per minute as i step into the maths classroom for period 1. Then my heart would double its pace for period 2 and beat 2 million times per minute and for the ever dreaded period 3, my heart would overwork and stop beating all together.

I am so melodramatic. I think it's time to return to doing something more sane - Preparing for Trial french orals.

The random tree of golden (or orange) opportunities.

I pick my own oranges

(Can someone pleasee tell me how to post my photos so that it can be clicked on for enlarged version??)

So yesterday i went on a Cruise in Blue Mountains and then went to an orange orchard in Penrith. It was a nice day that concluded with us going to Paul's house, visiting his wonderful poodle puppy, being graced with Paul's amazinggggg piano playing, and then eating at a restaurant.




This was too cool. The ship captain saw me taking fotos of his little driving cabin and let me drive his boat (figuratively) whilst wearing his lil captain hat!


My middle sister won that little bag she's holding! Out of like a hundred other ppl, she came 2nd LoL


I fell in love with this little keychain in a little shop in Blue Mountains


I got completely hyped up by the orange orchard cos it kinda reminded me of the maze scene in Harry Potter GOF.


Im sorry, but i had to post this. Basically it's what happens when i'm with my sis, equipped with cameras, and surrounded by oranges.


My mum became Paul's paparazzi aha. When he plays the piano, i swear it's like exercise...tho i feel more sorry for the piano.


Sweetest lil poodle ever.

My OCD

Okay, we've got a problem at the moment, regarding our cat. Unfortunately the cute thing (shown below) is practicing his natural male habits indoors, that is marking his territory to make his presence known (as most guys do). We're gonna neuter him and buy some enzyme cleaning products.

BUT my mum is continually threatening to kick him out in the midst of winter! He's got a blind left eye and bad back legs and my mum still insists he'll be perfectly fine.

It's proven that cats live considerably shorter outdoors due to car accidents, injuries, and cat fights!!

Anyway, I have returned to my obsession for dogs. Since christmas i've wanted a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel(1st pic) because of it's general good nature and gentle disposition. But i've been worried that it'd suffer from separation anxiety since it relies so much on human companionship and the long hours that it may be alone (uni, work, parties..etc).

After further research (i mean months of procrastination), i found a Poochon (poodle x Bichon Frise) (2nd pic). Some ppl might reprimand me for wishing for one of those 'designer breeds' that many puppy mills inhumanely breed dogs for. But I have several reasons:

1. A poodle's and Bichon's fur does not shed and produce allergy-triggering dander, which is fantastic for my asthma.

2. They are a small breed so they would be happy with a daily romp in my backyard.

3. Due to the poodle genes, the long, easily matted fur of the Bichon Frise is much easier to manage.

4. The usual highly strung temperament of the poodle is crossed with the affectionate tendancies of the Bichon. So i would get intelligence mixed with a wonderful attitude in a Poochon.

5. Lastly, mixed breeds (or mutts) generally live longer and healthier lives because of the ability to breed out hereditary diseases common in pure breeds.

I love dogs. I love cats. I love guinea pigs. I love mice. I HATE birds and anything that flies.

What?

-Are you falling asleep over there?
-No, my eyes are just small.

LOL the way in which the guy responded so honestly was ridiculously amusing.

Do you think the lecturer's hot?

- asks Maddy

I'm so bloody tired, like too tired to do anything productive. Last few days ive been waking at 7am - anyone who knows me slightly would know that i adore my sleep and can wake up well past noon if i had the chance. 

Sitting in a lecture for 3hrs first thing in the morning is tough but when you've got a man who speaks like David Tennant and even seems to have a david-tennant-air about him talking in the front, it's not so hard. 

No, i'm NoT a perve! ahaha

Something really oooh happened today. Just last week i accidentally added this girl on facebook who had the same first name as my friend from primary school. But turns out she's actually friends with my friend (whom i havent seen since yr6). Well, today i was at the library and then i looked up and suddenly she was right there, plain as day, studying 
with her friend!!

I was hoping to tidy up all that exam stuff that's currently occupying a large part of the dining table and then i gave up. Instead I tried on my old demi's and pranced around like an idiot. And then i had some luvos..of my foot..
 

Old Bloch Demi-pointes in possibly 5.5C (shows how short and fat my feet are)

 I'm NOT on pointe - I don't do pointe - But see those terrible spider veins?

Tonight i'm sleeping early so that maybe i'll be more awake tomorrow =P

 

Reflection

I am so upset

Lying trapped inside a game of chess

I had battled through with dignity

and sometimes with a bit of jealousy

But maybe i am destined to fall and be a mess.


I cry for a stupid test

Things like ranks and all the rest

I was just not meant for Chemistry

With its flasks and Solvay and formulae

It's all plummeting and i want to now forget.


Who cares if I'm not the best!

I will take this and use it to correct

my habits and attitude and work determinedly

No more will i mope and be my own enemy

I shall not forget but recollect!

Holiday envy

Our mini one-day vacation has been finalised. Turns out it's one of those asian tours and we're going on a cruise and fruit picking (?) along with some family friends. Those in SGHS might remember the mad/cool guy (aka Paul Pang) who played/smashed the piano in assembly, well, he's coming too. (My mum thinks that he is absolutely amazing since he got into architecture/law and is apparently a wonderfully devoted son). Anyway, maybe i'll post some pics afterwards if i'm not too busy nerding it out over maths and etc.

I can't wait to finish HSC omg. I've soo many things that i want to do. I need to learn to drive, get a job, get back into ballet, and of course shopshopshop! Right now, i'm completely in love with lyrical dance. I'm planning to join some open classes in Sydney Dance Company so whoever wants to do it, come and join me!

This video is one of my favourites (although try to ignore the girl's smile cos it kind of ruins it)


During those 4months of holidays i'm going to try to finish learning Paccabell Canon on my guitar since i started it like last christmas..
This is my guitar (it's a Martinez), it's kinda dusty..which i completely blame on the workload which the HSC imposes on us. Its nice and bulky too so it's incredibly hard to get a good grip on the strings, it would explain the pain in my fingers when i do play it.

Arghh!

I AM SO PISSED!! I spent precious time yesterday and today publishing these posts, and then i had to ruin everything with my stupidity by DELETING everything!!

I'm in a terrible mood now and refuse to retype up all my thoughts and happenings. So this must be an excellent first post - that is it's filled with contempt for the world of blogging (or myself).

Signing out.