I wish my face was a paper bag.

I am never EVER taking initiative ever again. It just depressed me all day. So much that i just hung around uni til 8 doing absolutely nothing. Sigh. I guess i'll just look at it as an experience that'll remind me to never do something so stupid again.

In other news, my plaster sculpture cast totally broke into 3 pieces when i tried to take it out. I hope that it is the ONLY thing i'll mess up this semester. To think everything was running so smoothly. I really dont aim to just pass.

Last night I slept 2hrs cos i spent 8hrs writing a review on 2 articles and was worth 30%. The 400 measely words took me from 12am to 10am to finish with a 2hr sleep break. I better get a goddamned good mark for it.

Gah i can't stop thinking about my stupidity. How will i face the world again. Im being dramatic i know but i wanna run and hide right now. Will someone just finally solve the rules of time and invent a time machine already so i can rewind it all.

Living a horror movie scenario

I went to a party/BBQ last night. I met lots of Techies and St Georgians and some of those ppl who you feel like you know cos you're on Facebook a little too much.



I ended up sleeping in Leanne's room. I was going to wake up at 6.30 so i could get home before mum did. Leanne managed to but i didn't so we just slept til noon.


Another friend has a party tonight too. I dont think ill go now.


Now ballet, and then lotsa catching up on work.


Til next time.

I have a fetish with charcoal

Nothing too exciting to report. Im still liking uni.

Ive got a crazy Russian woman architect teacher for Archi sketching class. She made us all go outside in our first lesson to swing our arms around in circles and stand in a line to breathe with our 80% water-composition bodies. She's awesome.

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Why is it that you never get the opportunity to talk to the people you really want to get to know while everyone else seem to just come at you. Why does it have to be so difficult?

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I get my first assignment back tomorrow. Let's see if Tim Wilkinson can tell that i'd spent 7hrs on the 500word report as opposed to the 20min i spent on the train to sketch my VERY badly drawn bridge.

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I spent the whole of my free day in my studio yesterday finishing this abstract sculpture type thing with boxboard. The aim of it was to imagine the negative space between two dancers or two boxers in a pic that we were shown and create a 3d form of it. We'll be pouring plaster into it and hopefully it'll turn out into something cooler than what it looks like now.

I've sealed it with gaffa tape cos it needs to be leak-proof. I still have alot more to mummify.

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I finally got a chance to make up for not having done Woodwork in high school. I had to spend 3hrs doing this safety workshop to get my certificate and card so i can use the ATSC studios. I have never touched a drill before until that workshop. Everyone made really cool things with their block of wood EXCEPT me LOL as demonstrated by a photograph of my craftiness. I don't even know what i was trying to make.



Have i mentioned how expensive archi materials are? You guys might be complaining about how i don't need to buy textbooks and all that, but really, it's so pricey. One pacer (or technically a 'clutch' pencil) costs $20, thats one of the cheapest things we need. The leads that go with the pacer....$25 per little pack...and we needed to get diff packs in HB, B, and 2B. A set square no bigger than a piece of A4 paper is $40. In summary, when you count it all up, it's expensive :D
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Today I got home at 4.30. Then realised no one was home to open the door for me (no keys still). So went back out to the city and hung around til 9. Came back home, someone opened the door for me.
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.Here's something unrelated to uni.
.Some people need to learn about dignity. I'm not meaning to sound judgemental but when they're doing it to me, i can't help but judge. It may be considered rude whether you're dealing with just me or with the big guys in the corporate world to run away and hide just because things aren't as easy as you wanted it to be. So be a little more mature. Don't pretend to be an adult when clearly you are not.

Sound relief.....Racecourse......Crazy day

I think i might have just witnessed an attempted assault on a woman/girl. I was walking home in the friggin loud storm when about 50m ahead of me i heard a a girl scream. Naturally i hoped that it was just some girl having fun in the rain with a couple of other ppl until the scream was followed by a 'Get off me!'. I stopped walking then, i really wanted to run up and see what was happening but it was dark and i could tell there were at least 2 guys. I called my mum to tell her what i just saw/heard and she drove out to pick me up. I made her drive around to see if i could see anything sus but itd been at least 10min and it was dark and rainy.

It was pretty scary. One of the guys who was acting like a 'watch out' person was lagging behind so i quickly turned around and walked back the other way.

Im really tempted to call the cops now, 1.5hrs after i got home..
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Well apart from tonight's creepy events, this morn/noon i went with Bernadette to Coogee beach for the UTS jap society (and i do realise that i dont go to UTS nor do i particularly like jap stuff). It was really fun. Funny thing, i found out that the USYD Taiwanese society was having a gathering in the area next to us and im actually a member of that soc so yeah, i ditched usyd for uts haha. (and i also realise that im not taiwanese..)
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I got to ballet late today xP. 30min late for a 1.5hr class..

OH CRAP! I JUST REALISED I FORGOT TO PAY MY DANCE TEACHER!!! Oh man I SUCK!
Gahhhhhhh!!!!

Sigh anyway we're having a performance on 'Sleeping Beauty' this year. It's the exact same choreography as the one done by a Russian dance company yearssssss ago. Im playing the flute fairy or something equally wierd as that.
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FARTS

Today I went to uni eventhough i had no classes because i was hoping to get some work done before going to the Fine Arts Soc BBQ and trekking to the art gallery. I found out that our Archi studio is an awesome place to study cos it's really quiet, open, breezy, and i have my locker there :)

I finished my reading on Upton today!! Yayy.

At 4 i met up with my friend and mingled around at the FARTS BBQ which was pretty awesome. Then we all caught a bus to the AGNSW and saw the Archibald prize, Wynne & Sulman exhibition and ArtExpress.

Uni's getting pretty cool (aside from all the work we've got piling up). Yesterday after studio, me and some Archi friends went to this 'designer drinks' thing for architecture soc/meeting thing. Turned out it wasn't much of a 'designer drink' since they only had beer which im not so fond of but i scabbed plenty of turkish bread, dips, and pretzels.
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I should be stressing about a report where I have to write about a Bridge on campus. I really don't know what to write...Im supposed to analyse the structure and architectural features of the goddamn bridge. Im just relying on HowThingsWork.com to teach me all this loads, force and compression stuff. Right now im thinking thank god i decided to dump my plan of doing engineering as well.
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Design prac

Im loving mondays and tuesdays cos we get 10hrs of design prac. It's so fun. It's like going back to primary school and playing with pencils, paper, and the only difference is that we get cutting blades now.

Basically today we had a partner to work on 2 A3 'plans' where we folded and played with paper to put on our 'daydream' space.

This is our whole tutorial group's 6hrs of work put together.

My partner's and my idea for this plan was to create a space that was structured and gave a sense of a simpler way of life.

For this one, our idea was to make a contrasting statement to the previous space. We were representing the process of a dream. There's no angles or sharp lines, just flowing disconnected forms. Notice the intricate weaving (cos that took us ages).

We did this on Monday. We were supposed to draw realistic and abstract drawings with charcoal/pencils etc of our surroundings in wide view, medium, and detail. Im not posting all these up cos i think theyre amazing or anything. Just showing u guys what ive been up to on the good uni days haha. My last post was of a bad uni day.

I realise my lighting's really bad. I should take photos in daylight. And can u believe this is my phone camera?? Im shocked at the quality (even the photos before were by phone cam)

Guess what this is. My tutor was watching me draw this and he was like 'I don't know what that is but i like it!' haha

Space and Politics

I have to read a chapter from Upton's 'The Art and Mystery of historical archaeology'. Every sentence is so incredibly dense that it's taken me 1.5hrs to get through 2 pages of it. Im yet to find a link between what i've read and the topic, Space and Politics.



I am confused and distracted and class discussions about our readings are worth 20% of this course.

"Once the simple relationship between an artifact, a person, and an action or intention is questioned, the building blocks of material culture study, the artifact-intention-person triad, must be recast to be adequate to the city-artifact" Upton (1992)

Yeh, i have to pretend to understand nonsensical sentences like that for 23 pages.

Emotional detachment

It feels like forever since the last time I blogged but Im back!

Ive had 8hrs of lectures this week and I must say uni life might take some time for me to adjust to. Everytime I go into a lecture room and I scan for a seat, i find myself thinking 'I WISH MY SYDNEY GIRL FRIENDS WERE HERE'. Don't get me wrong, Im finding talking to ppl and making friends really easy but its the lack of familiarity thats been frustrating me. I can't whine and be my stupid self, so instead im stuck with putting up this facade.

Yesterday I bumped into my sister on campus. I'd never been so glad to see her in my life. I was starving and had 15min to find SOMETHING to eat and she came to my rescue. After finding out that my AWWS class didnt actually start til next wk, i decided to go for a stroll to Central :). Surprisingly it's only a 20min walk (I still dunno how to get to Redfern nor have I tried).

Today I had a 2hr lecture followed by 2hrs of walking around looking at bridges. I should learn to be more efficient with folders and notebooks. I learnt that I can't cope with reading, writing and walking at the same time.

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I fell asleep on the train home today. I suddenly woke up and had a sudden urge to get off at the stop before my actual stop. I considered waiting for the next train in 15min but decided to just walk to my stop which took 10min, so I beat the train.

Oh yeah, I sat in my sis' Sociology lecture yesterday. The most boring subject there is, worse than Legal in yr11 in fact.

and I encountered tension and forces in my Archi lecture today. I daydreamed that I was sitting in my 4u maths class learning Circular Motion all over again (altho it was hardly as complicated as N=sin#+cos# or whatnot).