Life is but a dream - a dream within a dream.

    Friday, October 31, 2008

    Fascination for the limitless possibilities

    Looking for a job. I'm not too picky. Just not anything fastfood related.

    I've been thinking up names for my future dog (in my dreams anyway). If it's black it'll be called Chocolate Sundae and if it's white it'll be Vanilla. I'm not that into Vanilla though so that might change... Someone think me up more possible names. My sis laughed at me when i told her.

    I have a feeling that my holiday's going to be really boring. I mean after Coffs there's going to be nothing to do.

    Things to do:
    - Take family to Lindts cafe, and Norita AFTER i-->next point
    - GET A JOB
    - Stay over at friends' places =D
    - BEACH
    - Go to the semi-annual gathering at Sizzlers with family friends
    - Check out what UAI uac or whatever decides to give me
    - Get into engineering/archi at usyd
    - Swimming
    - Go Goldcoast or Melbourne depending what family wants
    - Clean my room <--thats a must
    - Clear the dining table of my HSC mess <--another must
    - Make 'Sell' and 'Burn' piles of my stuff
    - Give my kittykat a much needed pampering session
    - Beg and beg and beg my mum for a dog or at least find out if i'll be 30 before i can get one.
    - Buy a goldfish to add to our fishtank and name it Goldie
    - Learn more songs on guitar
    - Rearrange all the furniture in my room. ie, redecorate.
    - Dye my hair purple for a week. (those temporary ones)
    - Somehow find a quidditch set. Or a broomstick. Or a Slytherin cloak. Or a model of Hogwarts.
    - Buy 5th Harry Potter DVD and finish my collection.
    - Have a Harry Potter marathon
    - Everyone can come to my place and we can have a slumber party! (random spontaneous thought)

    .thats it for now.

    Thursday, October 30, 2008

    "All you do is eat and play. Don't you have exams?"

    -My mum just said that to me. I lolled.

    Come on ppl, blog more. My life is pretty sad, half my time online is spent flicking through your blogs and hoping that there would be a miraculous update inbetween the flicking. Other than that, its facebook.....And if not facebook then im googling random things like agnosticism and conjunctivitis...

    On another point, I must remind myself to set my alarm clocks to ring half an hour inbetween one another. This morning i had the biggest heart attack of my life. I planned to wake up at 6am but I half slept through the alarms and woke up 2hrs and 20min later. Thats right, 8.20AM. The 3U HSC EXAM was supposed to be starting at 9.25AM! I'd never swore so much in my life. I shoved my uniform on and was out the door in 5minutes. I made it and got a good lesson out of it.

    I love my Arnott's Vita-weat crispbread, so don't groan about them suz. They're really addictive. Today at State, as Moey and Jenny would know, i went out to the lockers twice just to shove more into my mouth. I remember on tuesday, i left them at home and whilst craving for them during my 'study', i found out that they weren't in my bag. Biggest dissapointment ever.

    Lame Nietzche and Barthe. I don't really care about them. Hence, my english extension prep for tomorrow is non-existent at the moment.

    Wednesday, October 29, 2008

    HahAH

    Of all the random messages i've gotten, this one cracked me up. I shant name and shame this person but LOL man.


    K*** *** sent you a message on Facebook...‏

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    Subject: hey!

    your hair looks kinda good... is it dyed or..... is it natural?.... and i noticed you seem mature as well.... are you almost ...23 years by any chance? o.O

    K***
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    Monday, October 27, 2008

    Another daily post

    Lets never speak of the infamous 3hr exam this morning and jump straight into 12.30pm where me, Colleen, Moey, and Tanya went off to lunch at this little dumpling place by Chinatown. It was really nice despite the hot, stuffy weather.

    I just have to make a point that I always eat as much as I want to, no matter WHO i'm in company with! You guys are shameless. But of course, no one's going to take my word for it so i'm just going to stick my tongue out at you guys xP

    We stopped by Colleen's place so that she could grab her stuff before we headed off to State. I was tired as demonstrated by my 10min breaks of sleep every 30min. But I made a deal with myself to finish one paper before i would let myself go home. Finally, we packed and left at 6.30.

    I can't believe that my house is as hot as outside. It was shocking when I came home. I expected the usual cool haven but instead was welcomed to a heat wave. Gross.

    Oh, and i found out that both my old ballet friends, Sophie and Jess, did their Intermediate exam just last week! Now i'm going to feel highly incompetent when I go back to classes next year but hopefully I'll be rejoining with my fellow hsc-is-too-hectic ballet drop-out friend. =)
    I was doing some random footwork oneday and my mum was like 'oh, you still remember how to dance?'.......Firstly, i wasn't dancing. Secondly, it's hard to forget something that you've done for 8years. It's not like I'm writing chinese, cos that i can honestly say I have forgotten most of eventhough i did it throughout my whole childhood.

    Thursday, October 23, 2008

    The persistance of Memory

    So I was looking up on the 3D Max program and I came across a French artist, Florian Delarque, who incorporates 3D rendering and photoshopping to create amazing works like this one.

    'The Skull The violin player' 2004
    It took me a little time to reflect on the purpose of his work which he said '..With Skull, I wanted to create a sweet character. Skull plays violin and he loves it...and he loves to share his passion for music with other..'
    In my opinion, your first impression of a work is alway what counts the most. So when I read this I thought, oh no, has Florian failed as an artist to communicate his objective for this piece? But then I closed my eyes and saw the artwork again. This time, my perspective changed entirely. I saw a whimsicle creature, behind the darkness there was a facial expressiveness that was intense but gentle. Very contradictory but very intriguing work nonetheless.

    Maybe I'll teach myself how to use 3D max in the holidays. Imagine all the possiblities or the IMpossibilities, if you get me =D

    Some more 3D Max


    I Love this one. You guys can probably tell that I think without doubt that surrealists like Salvador Dali and Post Modernists like Frank Gehry should rule the world. (Im VERY aware that Dali is long gone from our world..=( )


    Now, it might or might not be a shock to you to know that Salvador Dali is my favourite artist. Usually 'favourite' would not be the appropriate word to use since it seems so biased but its 1.25am, and I can't think of a better word to use.

    'The Persistence of Memory" 1931

    Impressively appropriate title for this painting. I have to use this word again, but the artwork you see below this, is by far my most favourite work there is out there. Well, at least until I find another one although this one is hard to beat since i've been taken by 'The Persistance of Memory' since i first came across it in yr9.

    Tuesday, October 21, 2008

    My finger friend. tap tap tap

    An update on Pip. I think he's grown. I THINK.
    But he's definately lost some of the greeness
    I shall take a photo in a weeks time or so and you guys can be the judge.

    I feel lost. Lost in my world. My world of possiblities, that being the endless imaginary scenarios that pop up in my head. It's why i need a job. Hopefully a job will give me a good kick into reality.

    And i think my titles are beginning to really lack creativity too.
    I think this post is lacking in everything anyway so oh well.

    Monday, October 20, 2008

    Monday, 20 October 2008

    English OVER for the rest of my life! I'm not going to bother counting extension since I dont plan on even looking at that till the night before, after 3u maths.

    After the dreaded paper 2 exam today, since you guys all decided to skip going out to lunch, I had to go out to pitt st mall by myself to grab something to eat. Usually eating by yourself in a foodcourt is fairly normal but somehow when you're sitting a table behind a dozen other yr12 girls wearing the same uniform as you, it seems a tad sad.

    I had a little retail therapy but I gave myself a time limit of one hour before hopping to State [I didnt actually hop...I wasn't that excited]. I managed to do a 4u past paper in 5hrs, keeping in mind that it's a 3hr paper and i didnt even attempt questions 7 and 8.

    I left considerably early at 6 cos I was getting bored. At the station I bumped into my fellow ballet friend, Cherie! I hadn't seen her since beginning of the year in term 1 and it feels like she's all grown up now, going to uni and working heaps. It was pretty awesome being able to catch up. Turns out that Sophie [yr10 sghs girl in fact] did her Intermediate exam! Wooh! Reminder: Bug her on msn about it.

    PS. I can play most of Eric Clapton's Tears in Heaven on guitar now. I relearnt it yesterday instead of studying

    Unprepared, unmemoried, the power of UN.

    Day before English Paper 2 exam and I'm sitting at my sister's computer blogging. This is how I am going to ace my HSC.

    If I plan to sleep at 10, taking an hour off for a good shower and eating, I calculated that I have 6 hours to memorise my history+memory and Ros+Guil/Hamlet essay, and figure out what on earth I'm going to write for SKIN.

    To think a year ago I thought at this time now I would be super prepared and wouldve had done at leat 10 practices. But the reality is that I like the adrenaline rush of knowing that I am running out of time and all I can do is cram. The number of practices I've done to prepare for tomorrow? (answer: 0)

    Wednesday, October 15, 2008

    Woo0p Hsc is AWESOME

    Yesterday I skipped going on my planned trip to uts library and ditched Bernard cos it was raining and looking too gloomy. Instead, i stayed at home and bludged all day.

    Today I forced myself out of bed by threatening myself with messages of abuse and got to State at 10.30. I ate crepes at centrepoint foodcourt with Bernard and Richard. I think today i was slightly productive...just slightly cos i got one practice journey essay done..in 1.5hrs..and learnt most binomials (yes, i'm still extremely behind). Bernard tried to teach me those harder proofing binomial questions. It ended with a very public debate between him and Richard concerning their different methods to solving the question which moved onto a competition of who got better in which exam and who's got a better overal ranking etcetc. They made peace eventually but they were both so stubborn. It was hilarious.

    We left at 6.30 and Richard ditched our dinner plans and went home. Me and Bernard ended up walking up and down and around townhall to find a cheap place to eat. Finally, after alot of deliberation we went to a Korean BBQ restaurant opposite Fujiya. It was pretty fun but i've officially nearly spent $100 on food in 2days. LOL.

    I got home at 9.40 and happily got picked up. Tomorrow i'm leaving at 5 and having a good night sleep before my SECOND HSC EXAM! (my french speaking in August counted as first)

    Ah darn Ben, he just suggested beaching after hsc and now my minds distracted by the imaginary sounds of waves..

    Tuesday, October 14, 2008

    Dream/Nightmare

    omg i forgot to mention why i woke up late this morning. An hour before I got out of bed, I had a terribly scary dream, aka nightmare.

    What happened was that I was opening the front door to my house and right there was a man standing with an axe in his hand. There was struggle and I managed to slam the door close. Afterwards, basically my sisters and I were running through out backyard trying to escape from the various men lurking around our house. In the end (yes, there was an ending to this dream), somehow they all got killed/knocked out and we were left exhausted in our neighbour's front yard.

    After this dream, I missed my train cos I spent a good 20min being scared of opening my front door. I ended up checking through my windows and saw my nextdoor neighbour in her yard so i thought to myself, if there was a strange man holding an axe standing in front of my door, she wouldve noticed (but then, my sis brought up the point that she couldve been being threatened and blackmailed). Anyway, I got over it after I managed to get out of my house.
    HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY EMILY!

    *3 Cheers for the coolest girl around***

    Emily: Hope you enjoyed all your early birthday wishes. They're only warm ups to the real thing.

    Monday, October 13, 2008

    Another day

    Went to State again today but woke up a little late at 9.30am. I spent the day with JT, Moey, Colleen, Bernard, and me. I managed to finish my journey essay from night before in the morning before going to lunch at Dymock's Cafe. We spent 2hrs eating lunch and trekking around the city before going back to the library. From that point onwards, i did nothing. I pretty much spent the rest of 4hours talking, going out to buy a drink and chocolate, playing with Bernard's phone, talking to Jenny, trying to do Moey's 3u question, and talking to a girl that I used to go tutoring with.

    JT left at 5 and so at 6.30 we decided to leave too since we were being extremely unproductive (at least I was). Bernard suggested dinner so we decided on Fujiya. Quite good food and fairly cheap too! What a bargain! Bernard and I had the unfortunate position of the window where throughout the meal, our eyes burned from the sight of a shirtless chubby man hanging around his hotel window whilst having a suspicious phonecall and scratching himself...

    Got home at 9 and i found out why my mum doesn't have problems with me coming home late from the library. Last time she came with me to the library, she saw me working with friends and today she told my sis that I've been studying really hard cos she offered me food that day and i chose study over food. Also, she said that I wasnt talking to friends and was really focussed on my work. I guess she chose to watch me at a time when I was actually working.

    Anyway, because of today's unproductive day at State, i've realised that i've gone there so much that it's becoming uneffective study place so I'm trying out uts library tomorrow after all the rave reviews i've heard.

    Sunday, October 12, 2008

    Billy Elliot Musical


    There's only 3 more shows on after my last HSC exam, that being chemistry. Last show is on 9th Nov at Capitol theatre. Now I really want to go. Like really. Tickets are around $100-120. What to do, what to do?


    substance-less

    BOS is rigged. I know this because I put in mediocre marks into the uai calculator and they gave me a fairly decent uai. Obviously there's a conspiracy going on behind it all. Secret plans are underway to give us procrastinating hsc students false hope and drop our guard. Then they'll attack on the 23rd of December with a big WAPHOOM on our defenseless souls.

    Today I spent an hour writing half a journey essay and then I got bored of Coleridge.

    Yesterday I took a break from hsc and spent the day helping my oldest sis out with her final grad project. We both have 3weeks of torture left before we're FREE!

    From nothing -->To lots of windows - surprisingly took nearly 2.5hrs

    We had to get a few things from Bunnings. A few being the size of our car so we had to crouch down through the whole trip back home cos we had to have them sitting inside being held up by our seats.

    And meet Pip, the new addition to my life.

    So, 5days till we can all forget about journeys and 'pleasure dome decrees' for the rest of our lives. How exciting.

    This is why i shouldn't be allowed on the internet. I have no self control and procrastination, we've got a love/hate relationship.

    -blogged for a total of 30 minutes

    Thursday, October 9, 2008

    If you were an 18yr old, which one of us would get a higher UAI?

    -Colleen asked Mr Michael this question in an email. I thought it was funny.

    Nothing too epic happened at State today nor yesterday. In fact, it was so low key that I was starting to wonder where all the SGH nerds were (yes, for this post i'll label myself a nerd). Perhaps they all decided to study at their local library instead where there werent so many random hsc kids hanging around. Like today for example, Moey was telling us about how, I think it was Jenny, was sitting with two asian gangsters on either side of her and this random chatty girl was obviously eavesdropping and asked, 'What? Your friend is sitting with two asian gangsters?' But thinking about it, Hurstville library is much worse since its filled with chatty hsc fob kids.

    My mum came to State with me today. Thats right, she forced me. This morning I told her one hour in advance that we're leaving the house at 9.30. Well, she didnt get out of bed till 9.10 and we ended up having to catch the next train. I was feeling very frustrated. When we got to State, I took her to the lockers and then shocked, she asked, 'What? We're going in now? I thought you were taking me to eat!' I sighed. I'd tried to feed her my Vitawheat crackers on the train but she'd refused it, so not my fault. I went off on my own at 11.

    I think Im a really slow worker. Anyway, went out for lunch with JT, Jenny, and kinda with olivia and her boy gang. Got back to the library and after some hours we went to Lindts and i got a small dark hot chocolate and it was yum. . .I will definately be going there again. We sat outside the library for a little bit and it got me feeling too relaxed to want to go back to study but we had to eventually.

    For about 20min I lost my phone so I had to search the library but it turned up at the security table which was good.

    Going to State everyday has potentially stopped my UAI from dropping to nothing but my wallet is crying from the daily train fares, lunches, and food binge trips.

    Ate a quick dinner at centrepoint westfield, I dropped dead from exhaustion on the train and got home at 10.

    Til tomorrow, lets stay sane.

    Tuesday, October 7, 2008

    Study break...yeh right

    I say there's nothing wrong with a little blogging on my time off from study (eventhough it seems to be my time off every hour of my day).

    So I can honestly say that my uai is quite possibly plummeting a lot. I am feeling very unstudious and distracted. Basically, i just can't study at home so im going to be off to State quite a bit now. But do you know whats really frustrating? My mother is constantly bugging me about following me to State and various libraries because she's got some masters thesis to do. What I tell her is 'sure, you can come if you want', but in my head im saying 'no no no no no no no no'. I dont need her stalking me however much she pretends she wont.

    Last week, I spent a very productive 4-5 hrs studying in the library cos all I had to distract myself with was me, myself, Jono (who was very undistracting), and misarranged books (which bugged me for a while). Then in came his friends and that was it for me, it was becoming too much fun for me to return to my studies.

    But today turned out very differently to last week. Firstly i bumped into Monique at State entrance and she got me on a high for the next hr before going off to lunch with [**insert warning here** lots of names to come**] Monique, Aleks, Jono, Isaac, Lawrence, Sam, Ben, Patrick(first time ive met him/heard of him, so I couldve gotten the name tragically wrong)..other grammar boy/s including the blond guy..spotted 2 girls i havent met..and Ben's sis, Rachael (actually..i dont recall seeing her at lunch). Sorry, Im just trying to test my shocking short term memory.
    Anyway, we took a long time painfully trudging back to State for another long 'study' session. I spent first 3hrs doing basically 1/10 of a 4u past paper. I did one random french R+R (basically the only thing i completed today). At 5.30 (why do you ppl have such early curfews?), Aleks walked monique to train station so i was left with myself for about 30min in which during that time, i got poked in the face by i think, sam's finger, but im yet to find out, learnt about prank love-confession phonecalls, the displeasure of the 3rd party on the receiving end of the prank phonecall, and the joys of not studying.
    Aleks came back and we worked on a total of 4 terry lee circular motion questions whilst listening to trance till 8. I got home at 9.10 and made myself corn for dinner.

    I remember in yr2 or so, we had to spend time in class learning how to write recounts. My recount above is a brilliant example of what I learnt in primary school - rubbish and grammatical errors.

    Ciao, til tomorrow (could be more or less eventful than today so im awaiting with anticipation)